Sunday, 22 September 2013

its been a while...


Yes it's been a while since i last blogged, but life got hectic and things have finally just started to settle down so i decided to get back into my blogging, not i think anyone missed me.. but still its therapeutic getting things out there and off your chest sometimes.

So bloggers what has been going on for you guys?

I'll start with what I've been up to, so i finally managed to get myself a job in the NHS (Scotland) i know it sounds daft but its such a hard place to get employed into unless your a nurse obv, but im not so it was quite hard to get into it, its took me a year since graduating to get myself into it finally.
I've been there 3 weeks so far and well to be honest its not what i was expecting, but i'll stick with it in the hope it gets better as i know things take time.

However in me saying it's okay i know that no matter where you go, sometimes even being qualified you still start at the bottom, so the only way is up right?

Oh yeah so i'm a Biomedical Scientist, fancy title, nothing special.  Im hoping to use this job to get myself into the Pathology department as i think this is where i want to be, i say that but if i get there i might hate it so ill keep my options open when it comes to it.
Having started to work in a hospital laboratory you really do see it all, and some days it makes me sad when you see what some people are suffering and you feel bad for moaning that i'm cold.
I enjoy it though, i feel like i meet people even though i dont i just deal with their samples, but you sort of learn their story as you do this, and you see some gorgeous names, i know this sounds ridiculous, but just seeing how names have changed over the years is really nice and how unusual some people's names are it just always makes me smile, also when i see people who are like 97 im like OMG cause seeing someone born in 1915 just seems so crazy to me but its so nice to see them still going :)

As im not settled into any department i do wee bits in them all, and on Friday i had my first day in the Mortuary, and i know this is going to sound like i am a complete weirdo (i promise im not a mass murderer/weirdo) i actually really really enjoyed it, it was not at all what i was expecting, i think too much CSI/NCIS has corrupted my mind haha, it was all just very normal and there was no stainless steel in sight which was quite disappointing, and the major thing i found was that it didnt smell, not even slightly, i thought it would smell of Formaldehyde or something but it smelt of absolutely nothing, i was astounded.
So anyway, I got down to it and went to work at the mortuary and it was honestly such a good experience, i get that its not for everyone and i guess you need to be a certain type of person to be able to deal with it, but i take all positives from it i dont find it creepy or weird, i actually find it really nice.
I take the stance that once someone passes away people often just see it as thats it, they have gone.
its actually not at all like that a lot happens in the mortuary and i think they do a really important job.
I like to think that the job they do is quite critical and also they make your realitves and family ready for you to see, ( if you see them in the hospital before the funeral home) which is important as no one wants to see someone they love in an awful state, therefore making someone presentable to their family for one last time is important and i think people forget sometimes, and just giving someone a little bit of love before they pass on to another place is a nice thing, they are still a human and they still deserve respect.

so anyway getting off the death chat i enjoyed it and i hope the job only gets better :)
Also still working at Debenhams which is still good, love my discount haha :)
Still see my friends, go out for dinner with my Fav <3 and yeah life is getting there!
Plus its Autumn and winter is coming, best time of the year!! here's to birthdays, halloween, bonfire night, christmas and new year!!


anyway im back bloggers so let me know whats been going on!